~One Smile Is Just Not Good Enough~

Undeserving...
I live my life in shame,
Rubbing two pennies together
Because I'd give up morals for mere fame.

I laugh at the posers and all the fakes.
Turn around, bust my sin,
And ask myself...
Who's really to blame for my mistakes?

And every day I see
I remind myself
Of that person I never wanted to be...
That all too familure "some body else"
I can't help but think that...
Because I misunderstood,
I'm becoming like those I said I never would.
I told them I never would.

I'd give an hour for 8 bucks,
And 3 bucks for a mile,
But God!...
I'd give 1 million dollars,
And my life...
For just one smile.

I wish all I wanted was just one smile.

~Frail~

Convinced of my deception,
I've always been a fool.
I fear this love reaction,
Just like you said I would.

But a rose could never lie,
About the love it brings.
And I could never promise,
To be any of those things.

If I was not so weak...
If I was not so cold...
If I was not so scared of being broken, growing old...
I would be...
I would be...
I would be...

Blessed are the shallow,
Depth they'll never find.
Seemed to be some comfort,
In rooms I try to hide.

Exposed beyond the shadows,
Take the cup from me.
Dirt removes my blindness,
And pain becomes my peace.

If I was not so weak...
If I was not so cold...
If I was not so scared of being broken, growing old...
I would be...
I would be...
I would be...

Frail.

(For the person who holds my morning conversations)
("Frail" by Jars of Clay)

Hymn :Jars Of Clay

1st verse:
Oh refuge of my hardened heart
Oh fast pursuing lover come
As angels dance 'round Your throne
My life by captured fare You own
Not silhouette of trodden faith
Nor death shall not my steps be guide
I'll pirouette upon mine grave
For in Your path I'll run and hide

Chorus:
Oh gaze of love so melt my pride
That I may in Your house but kneel
And in my brokenness to cry
Spring worship unto Thee

2nd verse:
When beauty breaks the spell of pain
The bludgeoned heart shall burst in vain
But not when love be pointed king
And truth shall Thee forever reign

[Chorus]

3rd verse:
Sweet Jesus carry me away
From cold of night, and dust of day
In ragged hour or salt worn eye
Be my desire, my well sprung lye

[Chorus x 2]
Spring worship unto Thee
Spring worship unto Thee

(I've known this song for a long time now... It's been so long since I have sang it though that I couldn't remember the words this morning. but for some reason God brought it to my attention that I needed to sing it. after meddling around for 5 minutes I finnaly got the tune but no words... 10 minutes later I had the chorus, and another 10 brought me the 2nd verse. I couldn't remember the rest until I clocked out and dug up the CD from my truck. After singing this a million and 4 times, the words in the 2nd verse have NEVER impacted me like they have this morning. and I've relized that I have never fully relized the meaning behind the 2nd verse. I can not praise God enough for relizing this. Worship is a beautiful thing!
Praise God!)