~Shiloh~
Shiloh.. all you wanted.
Shiloh.. all you needed!
I was surrounded by you in all that I do.
Never again. never again!
My skeletons in my closet.
Decaying human spirit.
I've slain Shiloh to hide my grief...
I've hardened heart.
I can shove it down, and still live...
So why not?
I'll cork it up and throw away the bottle.
Then grab the bottle and down goes my dreams.
I've slain Shiloh to hide emotions.
I'll hide this feather... I'll hide this bare chair.
I'll hide anything if it threatens a glare.
And you don't care.
Hell... you helped me cut his throat.
You've helped me move his body to my closet.
You've helped tear his limbs from his chest,
Just to mail them to your friends.
Surprised? Oh.. you don't remember?
You were there.
And if so... why glare at me when I write this?
Why take the time to see how I'm doing?
How I'm acting?
If I'm behaving maybe?
Do I fit in this cookie cutter world you've been raised in?
Am I another suit and tie with combed hair to bring home to your parents?
Yeah I'll provide a living but listen to your parents... "I'm dangerous!"
"I'm a rebel."
"Watch out for the man with the tattoo and buzzed head dear."
"Chances are he's a Nazi rights activist."
"He carries a gun! what's he planning?"
"No good" they'll suspect.
I've murdered Shiloh!
You were there.
He was our best friend.. remember?
I loved Shiloh. But he couldn't keep his mouth shut could he?
All for naught. I don't blame you...
Although you took the first slice.
Cut away his purity... you cut away his pride!
Now you ask yourself... your mom... your dad... your friend... even me...
"What happened to you Cody?"
Well you see... you never knew me. You never knew this man named Cody,
Because he was hidden in the man you knew as Shiloh.
Shiloh was all you wanted!
Shiloh was all you needed!
Shiloh the man that was wasted!
Shiloh... The man that is now Cody.
Shiloh... The one we murdered to hide our own insecurities.
You will always remember!
We will ALWAYS remember!
(I refer to Shiloh in the poem as the peaceful side to myself. My loving side. The one who always gave with never asking. I've seen there are always two sides to a man... every man. one loving, one hating. With the help of many people, I've killed the one who was loving. And all I seem to have left is this person who hates, and bottles up his emotions. Those emotions meant to be processed by Shiloh. And what gets me the most is I know some of these people (and other) are going to look at this and take apart every freak'n last little tiny itty bitty word and go over and over with it in their heads. but I can save you ALL that trouble by summing up EXACTLY what you were going to say to yourselves after thinking about this poem/letter for so long... let me do that right now...
"Wow... looks like Cody is getting worse and worse. he's changed a lot! and I don't think I like this person he has become. I really hope he settles down soon, and gets back to the same good sweet boy he always was, because right now... he seems down right crazy and wild. that boy needs some God right now."
Now let me give you my opinion... I've lost EVERYTHING I have hoped to gain by being the good person... by always giving and never asking. there is NOTHING God in his infinite mercy and grace will do to make me see this differently. so In reference to what you will say (but I have taken the liberty to say for you instead)
I don't give a damn. And to all those people who have quietly let me down, and forcefully cut my throat... good day)
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Thursday, August 17, 2006
~The Evaporating Girl~
She has been poured out among them.
The makeup of a woman "unreachable".
A pool of living deeds, and sacrafices,
That make her so beautiful
A million men reach,
But she drips through each finger.
With only her perfume to linger.
She's the evaporating girl.
She could be the one of my dreams.
The woman of transformation.
She's in the air I breath...
Strengthening me.
She is the evaporating woman...
And I seek to net the wind...
To catch my ever changing, rearranging, evaporating woman.
She has been poured out among them.
The makeup of a woman "unreachable".
A pool of living deeds, and sacrafices,
That make her so beautiful
A million men reach,
But she drips through each finger.
With only her perfume to linger.
She's the evaporating girl.
She could be the one of my dreams.
The woman of transformation.
She's in the air I breath...
Strengthening me.
She is the evaporating woman...
And I seek to net the wind...
To catch my ever changing, rearranging, evaporating woman.
~The Heart Of The Hardened~
Who can yield the heart of the hardened?
The men who live their life in full grasp...
Clinging to every color in the illusion the world offers.
Because what is life...
But what everyone has?
Nothing special.
Only made out of the blood of the immortal.
Who can yield the heart of the hardened?
Who can melt the soul of the undead?
Lying on the bottom...
Only two tokens can cure.
...And one inaudible.
God! help the man who has forgotton how to hear you.
One more chance remains.
One more token to receive.
And you would let it fail again.
And his life of pain will remain.
Who can yield the heart of the hardened?
The men who live their life in full grasp...
Clinging to every color in the illusion the world offers.
Because what is life...
But what everyone has?
Nothing special.
Only made out of the blood of the immortal.
Who can yield the heart of the hardened?
Who can melt the soul of the undead?
Lying on the bottom...
Only two tokens can cure.
...And one inaudible.
God! help the man who has forgotton how to hear you.
One more chance remains.
One more token to receive.
And you would let it fail again.
And his life of pain will remain.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
:Hate Me: (by Blue October)
(2nd verse)
I’m sober now for 3 whole months.
It’s one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart
is the one thing I won’t touch again.
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night.
While I was busy waging wars on myself,
you were trying to stop the fight.
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take.
So I’ll drive so fu**in far away that I never cross your mind.
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind.
(chorus end)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you.
Hate me in ways.
Yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you.
(3rd verse)
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave.
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made.
And like a baby boy I never was a man.
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand.
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine,
just like it used to be.
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you.
Hate me in ways.
Yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you.
(This is to the person I recently had an argument with. I know she doesn't know that awhile back she saved my virginity from just one phone call. One innocent phone call just to check up on me, and see how I was doing. Now she asks me why I care so much about her... It's not so much that I care about her for other reasons as it is that she has saved me from more heartache in my life then she knows. So I know It's not my job to care, and I guess maybe I shouldn't... but how can I not care about some one who I owe so much to? Sure we have our fights.. who doesn't? And you might get mad, and I might get mad... but I want you to know... I'll always be here, for whatever you need. Even if you decide one day to never talk to me again)
(2nd verse)
I’m sober now for 3 whole months.
It’s one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart
is the one thing I won’t touch again.
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night.
While I was busy waging wars on myself,
you were trying to stop the fight.
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take.
So I’ll drive so fu**in far away that I never cross your mind.
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind.
(chorus end)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you.
Hate me in ways.
Yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you.
(3rd verse)
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave.
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made.
And like a baby boy I never was a man.
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand.
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine,
just like it used to be.
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you.
Hate me in ways.
Yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you.
(This is to the person I recently had an argument with. I know she doesn't know that awhile back she saved my virginity from just one phone call. One innocent phone call just to check up on me, and see how I was doing. Now she asks me why I care so much about her... It's not so much that I care about her for other reasons as it is that she has saved me from more heartache in my life then she knows. So I know It's not my job to care, and I guess maybe I shouldn't... but how can I not care about some one who I owe so much to? Sure we have our fights.. who doesn't? And you might get mad, and I might get mad... but I want you to know... I'll always be here, for whatever you need. Even if you decide one day to never talk to me again)
~My Green Dream~
I dream in colors of black and green.
Faded, Tained... My green dreams.
I envy the Nile.
The beginners trust,
The old fools folly.
All for what?
Lamenting questions...
Another dream?
Another chance?
Another life?
And yet upon unwrapped joy from the host of life...
The same da** mistakes I make!
And now I've fallen twice.
I dream in colors of black and green.
Faded, Tained... My green dreams.
I envy the Nile.
The beginners trust,
The old fools folly.
All for what?
Lamenting questions...
Another dream?
Another chance?
Another life?
And yet upon unwrapped joy from the host of life...
The same da** mistakes I make!
And now I've fallen twice.
Friday, June 16, 2006
~Nice Guys Finish Last~
We've walked that road together for years,
Through the rain, snow, laughter, and tears.
We've shared the only light we've ever had.
Just to shed some on this dusty path.
I've grabbed your hand, and you've grabbed mine.
We've Saved each other through these trying times.
We've held hands when we've tromped through the snow,
But when it got easy... For some reason we never truely let go.
Because I had you,
All through this time.
I had you...
But you were never mine.
It just doesn't add up...
You do the math,
How come we can't find each other,
When we're The only two on this path?
(A kiss on the forehead? It's the best compliment I've ever had. To think that some one shared a portion of what I've felt From them. The most meaningful relationship I've ever had. The most meaningfull Kiss I've ever had... And both the shortest. Not because of that But because it meant something. Some times I think about my future wife (who ever she would be)... And hope she doesn't get mad when she asks if I ever loved anyone before her. Because I would have to tell her the truth, That honestly I have)
(I suppose it must be true. Nice guys do finish last... which is encouragement to be bad)
We've walked that road together for years,
Through the rain, snow, laughter, and tears.
We've shared the only light we've ever had.
Just to shed some on this dusty path.
I've grabbed your hand, and you've grabbed mine.
We've Saved each other through these trying times.
We've held hands when we've tromped through the snow,
But when it got easy... For some reason we never truely let go.
Because I had you,
All through this time.
I had you...
But you were never mine.
It just doesn't add up...
You do the math,
How come we can't find each other,
When we're The only two on this path?
(A kiss on the forehead? It's the best compliment I've ever had. To think that some one shared a portion of what I've felt From them. The most meaningful relationship I've ever had. The most meaningfull Kiss I've ever had... And both the shortest. Not because of that But because it meant something. Some times I think about my future wife (who ever she would be)... And hope she doesn't get mad when she asks if I ever loved anyone before her. Because I would have to tell her the truth, That honestly I have)
(I suppose it must be true. Nice guys do finish last... which is encouragement to be bad)
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
~My "Gold"~
Oh Pactolus...
Pactolus...
Grant me one wish.
For I've sent your friend Silenus to you in good spirits.
One wish I have,
And I'm so certain of it.
Oh Pactolus grant me my gold.
My acres of sin.
Grant me this pleasure.
This ache...
This yellow tin.
A touch from this arm,
This joint,
This finger.
A touch from this hand...
And my god will linger.
Oh Pactolus Grant me my gift.
Pactolus...
Grant me one wish!
...What have I done?!?
Dip me in Dionysus...
I'll leave it this scar.
Which I can see from my window,
This gleam from afar.
Wash me over,
and give me health.
Save me from my greif...
Save me from myself.
Oh Pactolus...
Pactolus...
Grant me one wish.
For I've sent your friend Silenus to you in good spirits.
One wish I have,
And I'm so certain of it.
Oh Pactolus grant me my gold.
My acres of sin.
Grant me this pleasure.
This ache...
This yellow tin.
A touch from this arm,
This joint,
This finger.
A touch from this hand...
And my god will linger.
Oh Pactolus Grant me my gift.
Pactolus...
Grant me one wish!
...What have I done?!?
Dip me in Dionysus...
I'll leave it this scar.
Which I can see from my window,
This gleam from afar.
Wash me over,
and give me health.
Save me from my greif...
Save me from myself.
Sunday, May 07, 2006
~Love Is Just Some People Talking~
Have my lips tasted sweeter fruit?
The passing of one moment And I've stolen a thousand kings loot.
One instant and the world a million times spins.
The only thing I feel Is my heavy, shaking limbs.
But it was an instant.
It was cold, and then hot.
And it only waited for me...
To become something I was not.
Shake me like the rest.
There are no more digits to wiggle down.
I've never become the thing you wanted.
Because I can never become what you've deemed me "unable".
I can only be all I'm able.
And I'm so willing.
And love?
Well baby for me, thats just something to talk about.
A conversation peice to label the reason why I cry...
Alone.
Light me up with glee and watch me set off.
I've blown up in your face a thousand times too many.
But all this time you come back to me with that one word.
Can this be?
Can this be...
That all my falling on my knees would count for something?
It's too much to ask in faith.
You don't hold the keys,
Because you never asked for them.
It's just another chink in your armor.
The gleam that glitters so silently blinding you.
I was blinding myself too.
I've offered that dirty cloak so many times before.
I'll lay it before the prideful's feet.
And I'll solemly swear that anothers won't pass my lips.
And I won't share this life with anyone...
Until I've been given convincing word.
I've told you once...
I've told you twice...
And here's the third.
Ask anything of me...
Anything of me!
And give in equally of yours.
......
yeah... I've had a bad life too my friend.
Some times I guess we just need to fall before we find our feet.
Have my lips tasted sweeter fruit?
The passing of one moment And I've stolen a thousand kings loot.
One instant and the world a million times spins.
The only thing I feel Is my heavy, shaking limbs.
But it was an instant.
It was cold, and then hot.
And it only waited for me...
To become something I was not.
Shake me like the rest.
There are no more digits to wiggle down.
I've never become the thing you wanted.
Because I can never become what you've deemed me "unable".
I can only be all I'm able.
And I'm so willing.
And love?
Well baby for me, thats just something to talk about.
A conversation peice to label the reason why I cry...
Alone.
Light me up with glee and watch me set off.
I've blown up in your face a thousand times too many.
But all this time you come back to me with that one word.
Can this be?
Can this be...
That all my falling on my knees would count for something?
It's too much to ask in faith.
You don't hold the keys,
Because you never asked for them.
It's just another chink in your armor.
The gleam that glitters so silently blinding you.
I was blinding myself too.
I've offered that dirty cloak so many times before.
I'll lay it before the prideful's feet.
And I'll solemly swear that anothers won't pass my lips.
And I won't share this life with anyone...
Until I've been given convincing word.
I've told you once...
I've told you twice...
And here's the third.
Ask anything of me...
Anything of me!
And give in equally of yours.
......
yeah... I've had a bad life too my friend.
Some times I guess we just need to fall before we find our feet.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
~I Am~
I am the sickness in your gut.
The tear in your eye.
I am the mud in your rut.
The words that you lie.
I am the plans that you made.
The same plans that will fade.
I am the torture from your friend.
The arrow in the path.
I am the war from within.
The shadow from the wrath.
I am your pains, your fears, your trouble, and your tears.
I am your life.
I am your life.
I am the sickness in your gut.
The tear in your eye.
I am the mud in your rut.
The words that you lie.
I am the plans that you made.
The same plans that will fade.
I am the torture from your friend.
The arrow in the path.
I am the war from within.
The shadow from the wrath.
I am your pains, your fears, your trouble, and your tears.
I am your life.
I am your life.
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
~Daddy's Little Girl~
She's a princess...
Her daddy told her so.
As he held her tight,
Just watching her grow.
She's beautiful!
Her daddy said "It's true!"
As he held her tight.
Amazed how she grew.
She's a woman.
Her daddy wispered now.
As he hugged her a bit looser.
Sat back, and said "wow".
Because daddy's hands are big enough to hold your world.
Daddy's hands are gentle enough for this little girl.
She dances for him in the living room, with her sister in twirl.
Because daddy's hands are big enough to hold your world.
Twenty one years old.
Her life is on It's way.
Daddy's a little older.
A bit more gray.
Still holds her when he can.
Though times a bit more rare.
But he'll always be that man...
With which no one can compare.
Because daddy's hands are still big enough to hold your world.
Daddy's hands are strong enough for this older girl.
She dances in his mind, with her sister in twirl.
And daddy's hands are still big enough to hold your world.
Daddy's hands will always hold your world.
I wish my hands were just like his.
I wish my hands could hold a world so lightly.
And yet hold a heart so tightly.........................
(For Jacklyn)
She's a princess...
Her daddy told her so.
As he held her tight,
Just watching her grow.
She's beautiful!
Her daddy said "It's true!"
As he held her tight.
Amazed how she grew.
She's a woman.
Her daddy wispered now.
As he hugged her a bit looser.
Sat back, and said "wow".
Because daddy's hands are big enough to hold your world.
Daddy's hands are gentle enough for this little girl.
She dances for him in the living room, with her sister in twirl.
Because daddy's hands are big enough to hold your world.
Twenty one years old.
Her life is on It's way.
Daddy's a little older.
A bit more gray.
Still holds her when he can.
Though times a bit more rare.
But he'll always be that man...
With which no one can compare.
Because daddy's hands are still big enough to hold your world.
Daddy's hands are strong enough for this older girl.
She dances in his mind, with her sister in twirl.
And daddy's hands are still big enough to hold your world.
Daddy's hands will always hold your world.
I wish my hands were just like his.
I wish my hands could hold a world so lightly.
And yet hold a heart so tightly.........................
(For Jacklyn)
Thursday, February 02, 2006
~Just Give Me Five Minutes~
Five minutes...
Just let me walk out your door.
And tred on your lawn.
Five minutes...
Just let me drive some more.
Now the feelings gone.
I stormed out mad...
And I said "I'm outtie!"
I stormed out mad...
Leaving you a little pouty.
Just give me five minutes...
And I'll drive a little, Call you back,
And apologize.
Because I just need five minutes...
To remind myself...
You're more precious then you realize.
All I want is five mintues...
To drive back, hold you and love you!
But all I get is 5 minutes...
To explain what I told you, and hug you.
Is my five mintues too much to ask?
Don't let me make you mad.
Let me in your life!
I could be the best you've ever had.
Five minutes...
Just let me walk out your door.
And tred on your lawn.
Five minutes...
Just let me drive some more.
Now the feelings gone.
I stormed out mad...
And I said "I'm outtie!"
I stormed out mad...
Leaving you a little pouty.
Just give me five minutes...
And I'll drive a little, Call you back,
And apologize.
Because I just need five minutes...
To remind myself...
You're more precious then you realize.
All I want is five mintues...
To drive back, hold you and love you!
But all I get is 5 minutes...
To explain what I told you, and hug you.
Is my five mintues too much to ask?
Don't let me make you mad.
Let me in your life!
I could be the best you've ever had.
Thursday, January 19, 2006
~Misery Loves My Company~
Crawl is such a sinful word,
Thats what I thought but never said.
It's such a sinful word to describe,
How you should never enter my bed.
I know you tried.
But you never succeded...
Just one thing in our relationship you never led.
But then again, I never heeded.
I can't lie,
It hurt me bad.
losing two friends...
Believe me, it makes you sad.
But I guess life's the greatest teacher...
Especially when you've been enpregnated by a preacher.
So you see...
Misery loves my company...
We've been 'round a few.
Heck we danced 'till three.
Even had a shot or two.
I've paid the fee.
It's the least I could do.
Even though It's sad to see...
Just how much misery loves my company.
In Oh Three I lost a friend,
And I threw a fit.
Now my hearts more broken,
As it tends to get.
I been 'round that same block,
Lost three more too.
Never even said goodbye...
But then again, who knew?
I've been in shock, been in tears,
Even been screaming.
But while these three years pass,
I get the feeling I'm only dreaming.
But the results on my life
Are sometimes more then I can bear to see.
Thats when I fully understand...
Just how much misery loves my company.
Misery loves my company...
We've been 'round a few.
Heck we danced 'till three.
Even had a shot or two.
I went ahead and paid the fee.
It's the least I could do.
And now It's so plain to see...
Just how much misery loves my company.
Nine years old!
I paid the price!
Been handed these words.
God knows I used this device!
I've had my field sown,
And I've reaped the tears.
That I've been prone
To cry these years.
But now I'm here smiling,
Without a hint of bitterness.
Because some day or another,
God will personally hand me my deliverance.
So you see...
Misery loves my company.
It's true I can't lie.
I've lost alot of things.
Had my heart sucked dry.
But God has filled my cup...
In time as equally.
So I'm still here smilin'.
Even when misery is in my company.
Crawl is such a sinful word,
Thats what I thought but never said.
It's such a sinful word to describe,
How you should never enter my bed.
I know you tried.
But you never succeded...
Just one thing in our relationship you never led.
But then again, I never heeded.
I can't lie,
It hurt me bad.
losing two friends...
Believe me, it makes you sad.
But I guess life's the greatest teacher...
Especially when you've been enpregnated by a preacher.
So you see...
Misery loves my company...
We've been 'round a few.
Heck we danced 'till three.
Even had a shot or two.
I've paid the fee.
It's the least I could do.
Even though It's sad to see...
Just how much misery loves my company.
In Oh Three I lost a friend,
And I threw a fit.
Now my hearts more broken,
As it tends to get.
I been 'round that same block,
Lost three more too.
Never even said goodbye...
But then again, who knew?
I've been in shock, been in tears,
Even been screaming.
But while these three years pass,
I get the feeling I'm only dreaming.
But the results on my life
Are sometimes more then I can bear to see.
Thats when I fully understand...
Just how much misery loves my company.
Misery loves my company...
We've been 'round a few.
Heck we danced 'till three.
Even had a shot or two.
I went ahead and paid the fee.
It's the least I could do.
And now It's so plain to see...
Just how much misery loves my company.
Nine years old!
I paid the price!
Been handed these words.
God knows I used this device!
I've had my field sown,
And I've reaped the tears.
That I've been prone
To cry these years.
But now I'm here smiling,
Without a hint of bitterness.
Because some day or another,
God will personally hand me my deliverance.
So you see...
Misery loves my company.
It's true I can't lie.
I've lost alot of things.
Had my heart sucked dry.
But God has filled my cup...
In time as equally.
So I'm still here smilin'.
Even when misery is in my company.
:Deliverance: (Bubba Sparxxx)
I've been travelin for some time
With my fishin pole and my bottle of shine
On these long dark dusty roads
Lookin there's nowhere to go
I guess I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
I left off of mama's with my thumb in the wind
The leaves on the ground, winter's comin again
Solid on the surface as I crumble within
But legends are made out of honorable men
So on the brink of death I still manage livin life
Cause so rarely in this world are these chances given twice
I indeed sold my soul, without glancing at the price
No instructions when I was handed this device
But with what I did get, I was more than generous
Put others over self on several instances
But I'm back on my feet without a hint of bitterness
And one way or another I shall have deliverance
So I say
I've been travelin for some time
With my fishin pole and my bottle of shine
On these long dark dusty roads
Lookin there's nowhere to go
I guess I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
I've been travelin for some time
With my fishin pole and my bottle of shine
On these long dark dusty roads
Lookin there's nowhere to go
I guess I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
I left off of mama's with my thumb in the wind
The leaves on the ground, winter's comin again
Solid on the surface as I crumble within
But legends are made out of honorable men
So on the brink of death I still manage livin life
Cause so rarely in this world are these chances given twice
I indeed sold my soul, without glancing at the price
No instructions when I was handed this device
But with what I did get, I was more than generous
Put others over self on several instances
But I'm back on my feet without a hint of bitterness
And one way or another I shall have deliverance
So I say
I've been travelin for some time
With my fishin pole and my bottle of shine
On these long dark dusty roads
Lookin there's nowhere to go
I guess I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
Friday, January 13, 2006
~Love Story Of Another Year~
A new year before me.
And behind me the old.
I've paid my penance with sorrow.
But what have I in turn sold?
And why have I grown so cold?
And why is my dreams shattered and my life on hold?
If I could only keep you.
For one night.
Near to me...
I would hold you close.
Let you melt away my misery,
And burn your face in my memory.
So I could always see...
You're right by my side.
Even when the world turns on me,
And I just want to hide.
When I just want to hide.
____
In my worst days,
I think about your smile...
Just your smile makes my heart melt, and beat.
Just one thought can do that?
What an amazing feat!
Because just your smile is more beautiful then any thought I have ever thought.
More beautiful then anything I have ever sought.
More beautiful then Ohio with It's snow.
More beautiful then the mountains of Colorodo.
More beautiful then the leaves in the fall In D.C.
More beautiful then anything I could ever see.
Can you just fathom?
You're the most beautiful thing to me!
(I started to write this about something else but I suppose my mind was on another subject. :) give it up for the first poem of 2006. I guess this site's been awhile coming)
A new year before me.
And behind me the old.
I've paid my penance with sorrow.
But what have I in turn sold?
And why have I grown so cold?
And why is my dreams shattered and my life on hold?
If I could only keep you.
For one night.
Near to me...
I would hold you close.
Let you melt away my misery,
And burn your face in my memory.
So I could always see...
You're right by my side.
Even when the world turns on me,
And I just want to hide.
When I just want to hide.
____
In my worst days,
I think about your smile...
Just your smile makes my heart melt, and beat.
Just one thought can do that?
What an amazing feat!
Because just your smile is more beautiful then any thought I have ever thought.
More beautiful then anything I have ever sought.
More beautiful then Ohio with It's snow.
More beautiful then the mountains of Colorodo.
More beautiful then the leaves in the fall In D.C.
More beautiful then anything I could ever see.
Can you just fathom?
You're the most beautiful thing to me!
(I started to write this about something else but I suppose my mind was on another subject. :) give it up for the first poem of 2006. I guess this site's been awhile coming)
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