~Misery Loves My Company~

Crawl is such a sinful word,
Thats what I thought but never said.
It's such a sinful word to describe,
How you should never enter my bed.
I know you tried.
But you never succeded...
Just one thing in our relationship you never led.
But then again, I never heeded.

I can't lie,
It hurt me bad.
losing two friends...
Believe me, it makes you sad.
But I guess life's the greatest teacher...
Especially when you've been enpregnated by a preacher.
So you see...

Misery loves my company...
We've been 'round a few.
Heck we danced 'till three.
Even had a shot or two.
I've paid the fee.
It's the least I could do.
Even though It's sad to see...
Just how much misery loves my company.

In Oh Three I lost a friend,
And I threw a fit.
Now my hearts more broken,
As it tends to get.
I been 'round that same block,
Lost three more too.
Never even said goodbye...
But then again, who knew?

I've been in shock, been in tears,
Even been screaming.
But while these three years pass,
I get the feeling I'm only dreaming.
But the results on my life
Are sometimes more then I can bear to see.
Thats when I fully understand...
Just how much misery loves my company.

Misery loves my company...
We've been 'round a few.
Heck we danced 'till three.
Even had a shot or two.
I went ahead and paid the fee.
It's the least I could do.
And now It's so plain to see...
Just how much misery loves my company.

Nine years old!
I paid the price!
Been handed these words.
God knows I used this device!

I've had my field sown,
And I've reaped the tears.
That I've been prone
To cry these years.
But now I'm here smiling,
Without a hint of bitterness.
Because some day or another,
God will personally hand me my deliverance.

So you see...
Misery loves my company.
It's true I can't lie.
I've lost alot of things.
Had my heart sucked dry.
But God has filled my cup...
In time as equally.
So I'm still here smilin'.
Even when misery is in my company.

:Deliverance: (Bubba Sparxxx)

I've been travelin for some time
With my fishin pole and my bottle of shine
On these long dark dusty roads
Lookin there's nowhere to go
I guess I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way

I left off of mama's with my thumb in the wind
The leaves on the ground, winter's comin again
Solid on the surface as I crumble within
But legends are made out of honorable men
So on the brink of death I still manage livin life
Cause so rarely in this world are these chances given twice
I indeed sold my soul, without glancing at the price
No instructions when I was handed this device
But with what I did get, I was more than generous
Put others over self on several instances
But I'm back on my feet without a hint of bitterness
And one way or another I shall have deliverance
So I say

I've been travelin for some time
With my fishin pole and my bottle of shine
On these long dark dusty roads
Lookin there's nowhere to go
I guess I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way

~Love Story Of Another Year~

A new year before me.
And behind me the old.
I've paid my penance with sorrow.
But what have I in turn sold?
And why have I grown so cold?
And why is my dreams shattered and my life on hold?

If I could only keep you.
For one night.
Near to me...
I would hold you close.
Let you melt away my misery,
And burn your face in my memory.
So I could always see...
You're right by my side.
Even when the world turns on me,
And I just want to hide.
When I just want to hide.
____

In my worst days,
I think about your smile...
Just your smile makes my heart melt, and beat.
Just one thought can do that?
What an amazing feat!

Because just your smile is more beautiful then any thought I have ever thought.
More beautiful then anything I have ever sought.
More beautiful then Ohio with It's snow.
More beautiful then the mountains of Colorodo.
More beautiful then the leaves in the fall In D.C.
More beautiful then anything I could ever see.

Can you just fathom?
You're the most beautiful thing to me!

(I started to write this about something else but I suppose my mind was on another subject. :) give it up for the first poem of 2006. I guess this site's been awhile coming)